Love? Define pls.... !!!

Jordan
Yeah
I've been so lost lately
I don't really understand baby
Wher did I go wrong
I wanna talk to you
Please call
Deborah
Where do I begin with you
after all that we've been through
I don't think that it would be right if we
got together so suddenly
Jordan
I wish that I could take back all the things that I said
and replace them with simply I love you instead

Deborah
You don't wanna say goodbye
But you never really seem like you wanna try
Jordan
But I only wanted you to stay
then I let you just slip away
Deborah
If you didn't listen to your heart inside
then it really doesn't matter what was on your mind
and if you need me then tell me why
Jordan
Girl, I never meant to say goodbye
Mmm Oh yeah

Jordan
I think about the past baby
Why we couldn't make it last, lady
I know you still have doubts
But I'm gonna prove that we can work things out
Deborah
I wanna be sure that you know what you put me through
and reveal that you intend to never let me down again
Jordan
It's clear to me and I can't ignore
that I have to give you something I couldn't before

Deborah
You don't wanna say goodbye
But you never really seem like you wanna try
Jordan
But I only wanted you to stay
then I let you just slip away
Deborah
If you didn't listen to your heart inside
then it really doesn't matter what was on your mind
and if you need me then tell me why
Jordan
Girl, I never meant to say goodbye

Deborah
I didn't think that we would come to this
Jordan
Ooh, no
Your eyes, your face, your smile is what I miss
Deborah
Why'd you wait so long to take me back
Deborah & Jordan
It's all a simple misunderstanding

Deborah
You don't wanna say goodbye
But you never really seem like you wanna try (Never wanna try)
Jordan
But I only wanted you to stay
then I let you just slip away
Deborah
If you didn't listen to your heart inside
then it really doesn't matter what was on your mind
and if you need me then tell me why
Jordan
Girl, I never meant to say goodbye

Deborah
You don't wanna say goodbye
But you never really seem like you wanna try (But I never meant to say)
Jordan
But I only wanted you to stay
then I let you just slip away
Deborah
If you didn't listen to your heart inside (Never meant to see you cry, never meant to say)
then it really doesn't matter what was on your mind
and if you need me then tell me why
Jordan
Girl, I never meant to say goodbye

--> been loading to my old phone and found tht this song still in my phone.... miss this song and kind da meaningful for me... haha!

-c a r t-

PG holiday during raya

went to Pg on Sunday the first day or Raya.... ahhahaha to meet up frens and celebrate Gary's Bday

Early in the morning meet up my frens in Toll as their car is like sandwich from KL to TPG... wkakakka pity them.... so after tht went to Butterwoth for Dim Sum.... sigh.. reach there saw my aunt and she told me " nth much left" kind da disappointed.. but still got few to make me full.!

Seriously i love the dim sum there..... hahaha
yummy???Waiting for frens to buy things so take this time to ...... u know.... wakkakka
the Bday boy with his new cam...

Shan shan hao poh house's view... nice lo.. i love it!
Pit stop at petrol station to go up Bukit Genting for dinner....

See the road going up to Bukit Genting.... Awesome is like Cameron!

and this is the road when in Bukit Genting... so narrow and is smth like real genting...

See this place... is full with cars

Dint know my new phone can capture so nice picture... ahhaha

weird dou!

My cousin call him " water boy" LOL....

Dad.. i got no money to buy u a real 1 but this will make u happy for a few Min.. wakkakak

Nice view huh...... really love Samsung phone.... cam are really good

After bukit genting, all of them went to club and i join my Monash fren in Batu Feringi ... this place is actually kind da nice but i cant remember the name... dunno wat sunshine bistro or smth.... it's actually YC on the beach during nite time... with club songs... so nice!

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Raya weekend..... happy bday to my mom and my cousin!

Last weekend, during raya... back hometown to celebrate my mom and cousin Bday........ the traffic really bad! but im excited to go back as is my mom bday..... hahahha bought a cake from Sunway and bring it back to hometown for mom!

Saturday morning wake up, go tesco buy some food to cook for nite party in my house with all my relatives.... hahaha traffic in taiping is really bad......

Stupid dog disturbing in the kitchen

yummyyyyy...

Carter's own made macaroni potato egg with cheese... wakkakaka

and my notti younger cousin!

she will never stop down, super hyper active... and my sis also no energy to play with her

my mom and my cousin ( god sister) bday....... my other cousin face become like tht coz i think i scolded her so she turn out like tht... wkakaka muka masam.. !!!!

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Happy Bday to Mummy and Cousin! Love ya mom!

SO yesterday......... f*king not in the mood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh ohh noo ohh ohh

Gave you the benefit of the doubt
Till you showed me what your all about
True colours came out

Oh ohh

And your words couldn’t hide the scent
Of the truth about where you been
Coz it was a fragrence I can’t recognize..

Standing there
Scratching your head
Blood shot eyes, drunk with regret
(hanging yourself , turn deep over the edge)

I’m done with this
Feeling like an idiot
Lovin you, I’m over it
I just don’t love you, don’t love you no more

You, you are so yesterday
Never thought you’d loose my love this way
Now you’ve come back begging me to stay

Say, you, you are so yesterday
Won’t let you rain on my parade
Don’t wanna hear a thing you say
So yesterday

Funny now how I’ve gone
The little light in your head came on
Now you’ve realized this is all your fault

Oh ohh

Don’t you wish you had a time machine
That way you could change history
It’s the only way that you could be with me

Standing there
Scratching your head
Blood shot eyes, drunk with regret
(hanging yourself , turn deep over the edge)

I’m done with this
Feeling like an idiot
Lovin you, I’m over it
I just don’t love you, don’t love you no more….

You, you are so yesterday
Never thought you’d loose my love this way
Now you’ve come back begging me to stay

Honey, you, you are so yesterday
Won’t let you rain on my parade
Don’t wanna hear a thing you say
So yesterday

And now you wanna reminisce
Say you wanna try again
Started with a little kiss
(we can’t even repent) no no

now I never wanna see you, never wanna feel you
ever wanna hear you
I don’t love you, don’t need you, can’t stand you
No More…..

You, you are so yesterday
Never thought you’d loose my love this way
Now you’ve come back begging me to stay)

Baby, you……
you are so yesterday
Won’t let you rain on my parade
Don’t wanna hear a thing you say

So yesterday
So yesterday
So yesterday

oh my gosh.... just love this song..... so yesterday.....
mood swing.... sigh.... really a bad day for me today.... yesterday cant sleep well.... than go coll like no mood........ sigh.. at nite worse... dowan to mention.!!!!!!!! fuck this life!~!!!! i feel like im an idiot! just like this song............. Holiday coming but i got no mood coz of today................ totally RUIN...!!!!!!!!

Weekends going to PG... hope i can really enjoy my day....!!!!!! eat and relax and Shop until drop!!!

-c a r t-

some artical from Coll

i saw this artical which is kind da true, so would like to share with u guys!

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some funny and cute picture to share

H1N1... baby taz is wearing my mask... wakkaa... stuck in the jam when heading to KL work... got nth to do.... ahhaha

Wat does this picture tells? hahaa.... my boy felt tired after playing with my sis shoes... wakkaa.... if sis saw this picture im so gonna get in trouble, my boy play with her shoes...... :P peace sis... peace...!!!

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Tim Sum with parents in Ipoh

FU SAN in Ipoh...... so grand ad the look!
u see all the ppl... i take 20 min plus plus to get a table..... so scary.... and yet stress when u eating, coz ppl will look at u when u are eating, as they wan ur table... ahhahaha

no time for picture, this is the only pic i took ... hahah coz too rush to eat.. hungry till.. wan to faint!

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Delicious with sis and cousin in Bangsar

Before my cousin went back to study..... there's alot of happening outting with sis and cousin. ahhaa so fun going out with them... funny yet.... crazy yet... tired......

And i realize my cousin is a good poser.. wakkakakka she is really good in tht!

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Putrajaya with parents.....

Cant remember when is it.... but it's last month that i can remember... hahahaha

parents went down for cousin convo..... and nite time bring them to Putrajaya for a visit..... kind da hazey....

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暗恋！

-卡-

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我没错

我坐在咖啡店落地窗的前面

雨水洒满整条街和人们的脸

钢琴的黑白键搭配过的和弦

我们的爱情什黱和弦

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰

这样的台北还有什黱好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动

给我借口让我这次能够彻底的放手

让我走别让我更痛苦的过

不让你伤的更重

i'll always always love you so

你表情好憔悴强颜欢笑的脸

你那哭红的双眼让我好心碎

我愿意让你飞不再对你留恋

别让我成为你的侧脸

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰

这样的台北还有什黱好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动给我借口

让我这次能够彻底的放手

让我走别让我更痛苦的过

不让你伤的更重

i'll always always love you so

伤得更重伤得更重

也许我没有离开的理由

是我没用无法守护著你一直到最后

别回头答应我你会好好过

让我默念一万遍

i'll always always love you

love you so

-c a r t- -卡-

another depressed moment!

Recently, my mind non stop thinking about wat had happen to me.....why is everything tht i did are WRONG? why ? and why im so depress and get mad so easily?

Keep thinking of my past... though can take it as reference as last time i m more frenly , more cheerful more happy. but things go the other way round, make me think of alot things tht im not suppose to recall....... sigh!

Coll life are killing as im rushing myself pushing myself to the max and grad ASAP, im old enough to be in University, frens all are working and im still stuck in Uni, i know working is not easy but still... have to face it! assign are killin me, i know it might sounds like im not a good time planner but i admit im not good in tht! i need to sort this out!

Personal life...... this is the current issues that im facing, all this time im a solo king, i did all things solo, but ever since i move out and stay with sis, i start to stick to my sis, as i though she is a girl and need guys to protect ( mayb this is the wrong thinking) so everyday will wait for sis to go dinner and gym. and yet everytime worry about her.... ya she is older than me but yet this is my own thinking and my own tough ! i hate my life, i don enjoy it neither, my theory is to make ppl beside me happy no matter wat way i use, as long as they are happy im alright with it, frens ask me why im always happy, but actually when im sad, WHO KNOWS? no 1 know even the close person who stay with me also dunno im unhappy, this kind da life is really tiring, making me crazy, stress myself. wearing a mask to live is my point of view to make ppl happy, ya some might said im FAKE, but so???

When back hometown last weekend, is nt a good time to go back as the traffic is fucking bad, but no choice sis wanan go back , and i long time din back also. so just drive back! i though it would be a wonderful holiday for me to spend my weekend with parents and family, but things just go wrong. mayb i too sensitive or smth,. back home though got nice food to eat although is late, but there is NTH in the kitchen, only soup. ok im fine with it as i only took MCD as my dinner while driving in highway where MCD cant make me full.!Hence, i went to living room and watch tv, until late nite parents all sleep and im alone in the living room. for the entire weekend, i spend my time at home..... don plan to go out. during nite time is the time for me to be alone!

Relationship??? don wan to mention this at all..........This picture tells us the feeling of the red crayon, lost in middle of no where.... which is my feeling now!!!! LOST

As i said, lately things don go well.... been scolding from some1 lately, dunno wat i did wrong and dunno wat happened.......... mayb i dunno how to think, mayb im not mature enough to think and make decision. the worse is i get scolded coz of SOME ONE which i don plan to mention! and i dowan explain too much also.. no point explain!

i told my dad i wanna move out and stay alone, and he's very disagree with me and keep telling me to stop tht thinking, but to me. i wan to move out and be independent, mayb after grad, if still cant manage to get a house than i will move out and rent house for my own and ALONE.

Sigh......... is time to think of my self.!!!!!! CARTER... WAKE UP.....!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wake UP!!!!!!

-c a r t-