the big big change

it's been sometimes i stop writing, and i don have much time to spend at home... morning working, after work then gym or sometimes back home rest.. than nite time online for while and sleep. everyday doing the same things, weekend just stay at home clean house and sunday sometimes hangout with frens.....

Ever since i grad and step into working world i felt that 24 hours sometimes nt enough for me....but sometimes i hope time can run faster.

Frens one by one leaving me, working, study.... and im stil in malaysia. sigh... but is ok i got to learn and over come all this....but sometimes i felt that alone at home is fun... no ppl disturb me, just sit in front of Pc and TV, enjoying my life...

working is really really not as fun as i though, stress pressure and others making me realllyy... crazzzyyyy.... and i really must learn how to be cruel and strong, enough of letting ppl take advantage on me.... no more mr nice guy.

Last month, i sprain my backbone and until today still pain, is really hard for me to go gym and move around... acting like an old uncle walk like an old uncle... sigh... when only it can recover... been taking alot alot of diff medicine but still canot fully recover, sigh......

Although i'm facing the big changes in my life, but im happy with it and i can learn and grow from this situation.

-c a r t-

爱情荒

He is always my all time favorite singer... ha h ah a.. just love his songs.......... but dunno where to download.. sigh...

-c a r t-

Just for u......

i MISS u.......

Mmm
Hmm

You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I
I
I'm in love
(I'm in love)
And I
I
I'm terrified for the first time and the last time in my only life
Life

This could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you needed if you let me try

You said it again
My heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I
I
I'm in love
And I
I
I'm terrified for the first time and the last time in my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh
I only mean it 'cause it's true
Ooh

So don't you tear what I've been dreaming 'cause it keeps me up
It holds me close whenever I'm without you

You said it again
(You said it again)
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
(Every word feels like a shooting star)
Oh
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I
I
I'm in love
(I'm in love)
And I
I
I'm terrified for the first time and the last time in my only life
Life
Life

In my only life

-c a r t- * heart u*

just the way u are.... and u are amazing

When I see your face there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing just the way you are
And when you smile the whole world stops and stares for awhile
Because girl you're amazing just the way you are

-c a r t-

love the way u LIE

just love the way u lie... ha ha ha .....



-c a r t-

dilemma....

Go or not to go???? i just started working like 1 mth ago and i suddenly got an offer where i need to work in Shang Hai permanent, i talked to my parents and god parents and both of them ask me to go....im still thinking should i give a try? should i take this risk?

For me im a fresh grad with little experience, but i got this opportunity to get out from Msia. this is wat i wan but im worry and doubt myself, my performance, i dunno i can handle or not but i just feel like giving a try, just tht....sigh... lots of reason in my mind..... WTF wei..!!!!

No harm going over there but jst worry after back to Msia..... no ppl wan me.. hahaa

think twice now....... pls give me some opinion..

-c a r t-

my working days

Playing Dry Ice with my boss.. hahahah

Here is my Boss with da ice cream cake...

Baskin Robin

This is my lady boss's Sushi Don.

July 14 and 15 is my both bosses Bday, and all the Co- workers celebrate their bday in the office during High tea, ( to be honest to u guys, i eat non stop ever since i work, my boss they all like to eat) and this is the first time celebrate with my boss haha kind da weird to me.. but anyhow
Happy Bday to u both again. Wish u get more events for us to handle and earn more.. haha

-c a r t-

Ouch..tht's hurt...

Ouch..... nice song huh... ha ha h a......
din know got such case happen...... sigh!!!

i just don understand

Ethnocentric ... yes i hate this kind da person, but why i face this kind da person in my life...... i just don like it...... im not ur slave im not ur dog.. stop controlling me... i can do wat i wan i can do wat i feel like doing.. i don need u to control me.... u just pissed me off............!!!!! stop telling me wat is right to do and stop telling me that ur way of doing it is right......... ok!

Second thing is, why people like to get attention and become a attention seeker? it's been so long and tht ppl still wan to seek for attention and get sympathy? is like WAT THE FUCK WEI.... !!! first of all i dowan to see tht person, second i dowan to have any LINKED relation with tht person, third, i prefer to totally IGNORE and totally fuck tht person off...just get out from my life....

Stop asking ppl around wat m i doing, how's my condition and so on...... if u wan to know pls... call me i will tell u in person..... stop creating drama in my life stop all the fake mask that u are wearing.... i just don get u why u have to do this? gosh......... izzit very fun? humph i don think so...!! get a life pls..
Grow UP pls.............

and some people's mouth really canot shut 1 lo.... like to comment on ppl like to become 2 head snake... U WAN TO BE 2 HEAD SNAKE AND FAKE TO ME.... YES WELCOME TO MY WORLD. IM NOW APPLY THIS TO U......u wanna play ?? come let's play along with u!!!
Stop comment on ppl's things where u eventually don own the things.... ok! look at urself only comment on me....... thanks and appreciate if u can SHUT UR MOUTH OFF....


-c a r t-

July Updates

Hey dear frens, sorry for not updating my blog.... well currently im busy with working ever since i finished my exam and 4 days later im working.... im now working in Kota Damansara, and is kind da near my house ... ha ha ha but traffic here jam jam jam..... just that 1 thing i like is... FOOD here are really alot choices for me to choose..... flexible company as is Aust comp so Aust culture... i like it...!!!!

Lately i skipped alot gym classes and no time to go gym... sigh... waste money and my body now like shit.... got to pump back soon... else .... waste le..!!! i've cut down alot of Clubs marathon... cause TIRED.. hahah a!!!!

will updates more things real soon.................... ( im actually blogging in the office.. hahah)

-c a r t-

my Endless Love

heart tis......

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's bright

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
(I-I-I-I-I)
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
(Ohhhhhh)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
Oh, love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh, you know I don't mind

'Cause you,
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oooh-woow
Boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, booom
Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom

Oooh, and love
Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh you know-
I don't mind

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause NO one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

-c a r t-

first day

first day of working is really... smth new to me... first day of working im ask to come out a Marketing strategy... and im ask to meet up client in Kepong....... really tired......and it's smth new to me..... got to learn more and got to work hard to get more $$$$$$ i can do it!!!!!

-c a r t-

My First post

Wonder why i name this as First post? well.. is the first post of my New HP NetBook....... after 1 yr of my Tablet lappy now is Netbook... to be honest.... sucks.... just the advantage is light the rest..... small and so hard to see...... i don really like it.... if travel of coz better la...!!!

anyway... im entering to the materialistic world soon.. is real soon..... after grad not even 1 week i found my job and im going to work on this coming WED....... seriously is WED.....!!! but good i dowan to slack around and wasting my time.. i wan to achieve my dream.! today went interview and at nite got their call! efficiency lo!

i got no time to go back visit my gran ma visit my parents and my god parents.... sigh... plan to go back tomorrow morning but end up got a call from them said got to work in WED... so i cant do anything...!!!! just wait for the right time go back hometown !!!!

-c a r t-

Pre Graduate

Im not official grad yet as result not yet release so is just PRE... hahaha!!! but wish me luck that i can really pass my stage...... im in the working world now, but previously work as freelance, part time, and contract base job..... i do learn smth from there... and monday interview hope tht interview can give me wat i wan...!!!! pray hard..... and one more job offer me with a better benefits but..... i dowan my starting life just to sit in the office.....so considering..!!!!

But... at the same time..... i dunno wat i wan to do now as during exam i told myself i got to do this do tht after my exam done... but now... i sit and think... i forgotten wat i wan to do..... shit lo...!!!!
anyway looking forward for a short trip soon as no time and no $ for me.. im broke, and i need to declare to bank soon!!! ha ha h a

Just wonder why i don have tht excited feeling that im actually grad and i just felt sad or smth... and yet i felt is just a normal routine that wat im doing now...! kind da weird.. i see my fren happily enjoy and celebrate but i just...NTH... mayb clubbing marathon consider my celebration but not with my coll frens is with my gang.... kind da weird hah ha h a

Anyway recently found out this song, is an old song and sang by Oasis but now Boyce Avenue re-sing tht song ....... recall back my youth time with tht song!



-c a r t-

天真 Naive

nice song!! lyrics awesome ha ha !!! the lyrics inside do mention tht " finally she is awake from being naive" ya i think most of the ppl do come across this stage before... hahah but im awake since few years back!!!!!!!! and to my darlin Eunice....... u know wat i wan to tell u la!!!

-c a r t-

Happy Father's Day

Dear Daddy,

Happy Father's day to u ...... dunno u can manage to read this or not but i would like to tell my frens here that u are my best dad .......... love u so much !!! although sometimes im bad sometimes in naught and every bad temper towards u but im here to say sorry and forgive me...!

Thanks for everything that u gave me, things tht u educate me... i know im not a good boy to u but i will try my best to be one ! thanks for ya house that u bought for me and thanks for the car that u gave me, whenever i need helps u will be there... thanks!!!! and whatever things that i wan u will try to get it for me.. thanks alot dad! dunno how long i can repay all the things that u spend and waste on me.......

Happy Father's day again to u ... Love ya!

-c a r t-

Take my love trough the nite!

Love this song so much... thanks to someone sent me this song.. hahaha :P
is an old song!

-c a r t-

Impossible!!!

I remember years ago someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love, I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not, my illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot, I did

And now when all is done, there is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won, you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof top
Write it on the skyline, all we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken
All my scars are open, tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard, falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts, I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there, building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear, I know (I know)
And know when all is gone, there is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof top
Write it on the skyline, all we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken
All my scars are open, tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love, I did

Tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof top
Write it on the skyline, all we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken
All my scars are open, tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible, impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love, I did

I know is abit...... obsolete but ... stil awesome to me.. haha!!

-c a r t-

distraction in my mind!!!!

Recently...... im stress with my final exam........ this is a normal routine for students.. and im old enough to become a student.... and yet i still wan to become a students... ha h ah a..... planning for my Master now but......... got to think twice izzit really helpful for me.....izzit worth going for Master? and im really old enough to become a student... sigh.!!!!!!

But of coz... after my exam i got to work st8 away as 2 companies are waiting for me ( hope they still wan me la..) ha ha ha.... but i wan to travel around and rest.. the point is i need $$$ i need alot $$ to settle my house..., sigh!!!! now i know the burden when u have ur own house! pressure.........

Dad keep asking me where i wanna go for holiday but i just dunno how to answer him....... i just told him..... don plan to go anywhere yet! but i wish i can go Aust or Canada to visit frens and cousin......!!!

After Exam i still need to go Ikea, and some Art shop to check out lots of things........and again dunno how much i need to spend on this shopping this time.... sigh... Money is everything now!

I need to work extra hard to achieve my dream before im 30 years old....and i know is hard but i just need to do it......others can do it and Carter also can do it!!!!!!!!!!!! ha ha ha too over confidence ad... later i canot do it than Gone Case! this is part of the motivation for myself le...!!!!
if i really success in this, and im totally out from Msia and stay away from all the " fake" all the " plastic" all the " pigs" all the " wannabe" all the " politics" ........... but i just need time and $$$ to achieve my dream!!!!!!!

sigh... time to sleep la.. hopefully i can sleep well tonite... as i dunno why i cant get a good nite sleep after i move in to this house..............

-c a r t-

Brand new house!

Finally i move into my new house in D'sara la...!!!! after so long i din get to online and finally i can online and post....!! haha... but recently im busying with my house things where now i know that alot things need to settle after u move in to new house.... really ALOT..... internet la... Alarm systems, Astro... and more....and now i need to wash my own clothes , clean the whole house.... and cook!!! gosh... really alot task!!!!!! but i kind da enjoy it now coz it's still new..... wait for few months i can sure i will call maid every weekend...!! ahha

I actually putting alot effort in this house where can said 80% of this house is under my control and i need to take 80% of the responsibilities and it's actually very very tired and stress...... even a small matter also i need to handle by my own....!!!!

I'm sick for the last weekend and now im recovered but then during tht moment... i still need to settle TM net... AStro and more...... but after all i got my own nice room to sleep is worth it!!!!!

Still planing to throw a party in my house but wonder should i make it big or just a small party bash???? coz financial problem... hahah!!!!

End of this month im free......and guess i will start working once i done my final exam... i need $$ to go for my graduation holiday!!!!! dunno where but still planing!!!! i wan to have a 100% stress free holiday and relax till the max!!!!!

- c a r t-