Month of Xmas n Bday

It's the month of Xmas and my Bday..... and is Dec where ppls are looking forward for this mth as it is the holiday month....... every year of this month i will be super high and excited.. but this year..............it totally the different... i wonder why also...

i got no mood to celebrate my Bday and feel like running away from my Bday and also Xmas. To me now, Bday is just another normal day and Xmas also is just a day where all the family and frens gather...... This year im going to celebrate my Bday in Spore with my gang of frens... but before going ad spoiled my mood and making me to have tht kind da feeling to pull off and just stay in Msia....

Xmas is just ..... grh.....just dunno wat i wan for Xmas......mayb this year is just not my year la... according to the fortune teller.... and feng sui master......

-c a r t-

Flash Mob

Glam Street Flash Mob... ha ha ha i love it so much so enjoy tht day........ !!!

Mood status: D O W N

First week of NOV ended.. and i've waited something important that could change my entire life... but today is friday.. which means end of the week ad... got no calls from them got no news as well.. sigh.... how??? really in deep down sad mood.... guesss i just need to stick back to my old life.... no changes no challenges................

How do u feel when u need tht things so badly but end up which is not belong to u?? welll i think most of the ppl also had tht feeling before, so do i....

I really need to work harder to achieve wat i expect now.... pray hard as well......hope next month would be a better month for me or next year mayb??? Been kind da emo lately.... dunno wat the hell im doing and so fucking blur........ dreaming while driving, cant concentrate during work and also gym......... so BLUR....... and my desktop in my room finally " break up with me" after 11 yrs beside me......so i've been checking out Phones and Desktop lately.... but guess PC is more important compare to phones.... ha ha

-c a r t -

love the way you lie part II

Random....

Recently, im kind da bz with my event in PWTC which end up with sucky result where my management in the office messed up all the things......

It's really a hard and worse task im handling.... whole hall im controlling and is ALONE. it's really not an easy task. clients scold, give hell look and so on... also i need to smile back at them.... so this is actually a challenge for me also. It's pain in the heart but at least i learn smth where next event i can be more aware of and not gonna happen again. but after all is not my mistake to give them trouble just my management in not doing the right way and others just to cover up their ass...

Met alot new ppl, new frens and new network, some people really think their money is everything and is BIG enough to cover up ppl's mouth. and some humble clients really make me feel like learning and take them as role model... they really humble and frenly, unlike some idiots.

Harsh time is over and now i'm too free in the office, blogging and doing nth...... my colleague beside me is actually sleeping right now and the others watching drama and forum_ing. and i dunno wat to just blog.

Life is really challenging... i need smth more challenging and more motivation for myself....... wish i can get the offer ASAP, is year end and i need alot of $ by the time, sigh....... need to work part time to earn my extra pocket $ la....

Fren offer me a trip to China for FREE for my Bday present but dunno should i take it or not..... so guess i just let it be? humph China is not wat i wan... i prefer Aust, HK, Taiwan or Japan... hahah..

This year Bday gonna be different... as i don plan to do anything for my Bday but just a solo vacation for my bday and another tattoo as a gift for myself.....sounds pathetic? humph i also felt tht but i think i like it since not really happening in KL.... so mayb another RUNAWAY trip? hahah..... let's see how my financial goes......

-c a r t-

my dinner for this moment...

Introducing ... my new Dinner when im in Mid Valley.. ha ha coz only can get in Mid Valley. This is one of my favorite juice in Melb, but diff form Melb the flavor here, not much choice and wat i drink in Melb they don have it here.... u can actually add BOOSTER which only RM 2 for 3 types of Booster... kind da nice to drink. Celebrities Members can get 10% disc. so check out if u are Celeb members.

-c a r t-

Hot weather

Last Sunday, weather is too hot.. untill smth happened. see pics below and u know why.
I just light up the burner like how usually i light up and then went off to bed, but this time i really crazy... i wake up and than down to living watch series and than came up and shower than only i notice... my wall..... and the glass.. and get scolded from my sis , which i nearly burn down my house. gosh kind da scary also.. but thank god nth happen . just replace the glass and wash off the stain, and back to normal.

see how dark is this burner... canot fully remove the stain. sigh .. wasted my money

And the big big hole that crack.. i wonder how does this happen. got no idea.

the Burned stain on the wall, but luckily can wash off... else my head will be chop off from my dad.

no matter how hard i try to clean, yet still the same... sob soband this is after replace and clean up..........

Lesson learned , never burn this again when sleeping or smth.. just burn on the floor mayb.. LOL....... and im BANNED from using tht from my sis and some1...... so have to choice... got to find out other way ... MAYA is way too expansive ( the green flower).

-c a r t-

Alot more pics to be upload. but im too lazy... so just randomly pick la....
Weather is freaking hot lately... wth wei...... air cond fully blast still felt hot in the room..... living room no air cond but yet cooling... guess i should sleep in living room......!

I've made my division for my career.. so i guess bad time is coming so i got to fight it back...

Mood really not good recently wonder why...... PMS mayb? LOL..wearing a fake mask everyday is really suffering... gosh..wish i can end this shit real soon.....

-c a r t-

Brielle

your call.....

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

lost my direction

Recently, i've no idea wat m i doing. everyday same doing the same routine work everyday try to force myself to be happy n get into my job. im happy with my job, but i just don understand why i work in such company... sigh. i 've enough of all this shit that they gave me. working in an un-organize company is really killing me, i have to said i learn nth new, and now drop a huge " shit" let the down line clean up the shits... sigh... im stress with my job, i love my job but i hate the task, the management, toally... messed.

Telling myself to ignore all the shit and just continue to walk this journey but the road is getting more and more worse, cant see any benefits towards me. guess i should stop this and start a new journey before i get " KILLED". admit that im stupid, received others offer but i rejected as i though i can fight this " war" but too bad the "war" will only have " failure" rather then " success". so guess is time to let it go and walk a new road, parents been telling me to let go and stop doing " Charity", but i told them i still can fight for it.. too bad guess now it come to the end.

Hope wat ever things or decision that i made is correct. pray hard........ good bless pls.

There is smth missing in my life, but i have to face it as well.....missing someone that you know u cant get it is really........ *speechless* anyhow i still wanna tell u I MISS U .

- c a r t-

Still in Melb

Time passed so fast and i still got 2 more days i need to tar pao and back to Msia.... and start my working day... no more relax, lazy, leisure time.......but all i save and spend here are totally worth it... i never spend like this crazy before. i got to save when back to msia.. hahaha really DRY UP ad...!
I like the culture here the lifestyle as well but the thing is.. here is kind da cold to me.. during nite time and when u wake up as well.. i really..... freezing.. mayb i need time to get use to it.. haha

i think im going to fall sick real soon, as today whole day i don feel well, whole body hot and is like burning... guess fever gonna visit me real soon... sigh.....

some pics will be uploaded when i back to msia.. as not much time here in melb i can online.....tomorrow got to shop for presents.... so hope i got enough cash la...









-c a r t-

Melb day out

Day 2 in melb or Melly.. hahha it's sunday and not tht cold, so decided to go out to the beach and walk around.... gosh. i like it here. the beach full of ppls and all of them just sit and chill there... and some cafe along the beach.... and alot BITCh also.. wakkaka jkjk

Dogs are every where walking on the beach which i really really like it.. wonder if i bring my baby boy Chester here wat will he do the first things??? rape the female dogs? or just jump into the water? hahah wonder...

it's sunny yet the wind is cold... its just perfectly fine.... love this.

Around dinner time get down to the city to meet Michelle ( PAO PAO), i din see her for like ages, so this is the time me and her hang out and dinner in dunno wat road ad.. cant recall and with Dillon as well...3 person ate 2 ducks... shit. this is really really... FULL and feel like puke.... ha ha ha..

after dinner went to Crown, wanna go casino but too late scare later no tram back to St kilda.. so change plan to tomorrow..... casino...

lazy to blog la... TBC..... time to sleep and wake up for a nice breakfast..........

Cart and Beloved michelle in crown

Bad boy's toy

Love this Choc Pizza..... awesome dessert..

-c a r t-

first day

First day in Melb.... touched down in Melb around 8 plus and reach fren's house around 10 plus.. gosh im so tired.. and the weather like so nice to slep.. i like it.... can the whole Melb concept move to Msia? even the econ, ppl, and gov.....
the ppl here are so so so so frenly. i just like it..!!! unlike msia... sigh.. speechless.

More updates coming up and pics as well.. lazy to post up as i wanna off to bed now....

PS: to Cheryl , Eunice, Evelyn and Kel.. im meeting pao pao tomorrow.. hahah and the Duck shop she said will call me up tomorrow to check can book or not.... hahaha i will take picture and show u guys la....

-c a r t-

Try..... i'll just try

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one
Would you believe me

If I ask you to stay
Would you show me the way
Tell me what to say
So you don't leave me

The world is catching up to you
While you're running away
To chase your dream

It's time for us to make a move
Cos we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready but I'll--

Try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song
Would you sing along
Away till I'm gone
Oh how we push and pull

If I give you my heart
Would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start
Of something beautiful

Am I catching up to you
While you're running away
To chase your dreams

It's time for us to face the truth
Cos we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready but I�ll--

Try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one
Would you believe me

I miss you so much........so badly! *hugs*

-c a r t-

Chap Pa Lang Updates

Thursday Hari Raya Eve, went to gym after working and parents coming down KL as i dowan to stuck in the jam for Raya festival, got a feeling it's gonna be a super tired and stress jam. while in the gym, my phone suddenly rang, and it's from my house and i knew it's gonna be my parents forget i ad on the house alarm and just walk in.. haha..!!!
Friday morning wake up and breakfast is served and lunch is ready.. wow how awesome if everyday wake up everything are done and prepare... ha ha ha it will be just a dream.

Went to Ikea and bought alot of things with parents, sis bought a cupboard and it look nice after install and place in the room, so mom asked me to get another one for my room and she said my room not well arrange.. so i need that to keep my things.... ok fine with it i got a new cupboard.
Nite time out gather with my gym frens in subang Jaya some cafe call Meeple or smth i not sure about the name is a Game Cafe... it's kind da fun and is my first time visited there, after all the games that we played kind da similar with what i play outside with frens just that they have people to guide us and playing it in a correct way and with explanations. mayb it's holiday so the cafe totally crowded.
1 more month, due date for my exhibition, is gonna be a busy month for me, got to over nite in PWTC la.. hahah....( i doubt that) stress level increase, pressure from boss increase as well... hope after this exhibition, the IBM event not that stress. anyhow i still need to work harder and slightly boost up my performance, as i dowan to disappoint all the ppls who paying high hope on me.

ok let me intro u guys some new house essential oil, this is really really superb. i place in living room and i can smell it from my room. and it's so strong. well u guys can get it from Ikano Power Center or One U ( during Raya Only) in front PUMA (if not mistaken). available in different smell and i personally like Thai Spa and Lemon Grass, yet i bought another Donna Cheng candle, it's expansive but the smell more powerful that this oil, and it can last longer than the oil. so is worth it. i bought alot for my house and my hometown house as well. this is why im broke

moon cake festival coming real soon, and it's moon cake shopping time. got to buy all my favorite moon cake. i will upload the nice moon cake that i bought real soon.. currently im in Super PK ( broke) condition.

-c a r t-

i bleed my heart just for u

awesome shit.... ha ha h a... nice video.

-c a r t-

the big big change

it's been sometimes i stop writing, and i don have much time to spend at home... morning working, after work then gym or sometimes back home rest.. than nite time online for while and sleep. everyday doing the same things, weekend just stay at home clean house and sunday sometimes hangout with frens.....

Ever since i grad and step into working world i felt that 24 hours sometimes nt enough for me....but sometimes i hope time can run faster.

Frens one by one leaving me, working, study.... and im stil in malaysia. sigh... but is ok i got to learn and over come all this....but sometimes i felt that alone at home is fun... no ppl disturb me, just sit in front of Pc and TV, enjoying my life...

working is really really not as fun as i though, stress pressure and others making me realllyy... crazzzyyyy.... and i really must learn how to be cruel and strong, enough of letting ppl take advantage on me.... no more mr nice guy.

Last month, i sprain my backbone and until today still pain, is really hard for me to go gym and move around... acting like an old uncle walk like an old uncle... sigh... when only it can recover... been taking alot alot of diff medicine but still canot fully recover, sigh......

Although i'm facing the big changes in my life, but im happy with it and i can learn and grow from this situation.

-c a r t-

爱情荒

He is always my all time favorite singer... ha h ah a.. just love his songs.......... but dunno where to download.. sigh...

-c a r t-

Just for u......

i MISS u.......

Mmm
Hmm

You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I
I
I'm in love
(I'm in love)
And I
I
I'm terrified for the first time and the last time in my only life
Life

This could be good
It's already better than that
And nothing's worse than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you needed if you let me try

You said it again
My heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I
I
I'm in love
And I
I
I'm terrified for the first time and the last time in my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh
I only mean it 'cause it's true
Ooh

So don't you tear what I've been dreaming 'cause it keeps me up
It holds me close whenever I'm without you

You said it again
(You said it again)
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
(Every word feels like a shooting star)
Oh
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I
I
I'm in love
(I'm in love)
And I
I
I'm terrified for the first time and the last time in my only life
Life
Life

In my only life

-c a r t- * heart u*